maple and me

It is quite funny, that I feel, I fit in nicely among the South East Asians. Some of those who play maple with me don’t even believe I’m not from SEA. I can understand their slang well and as well use it when I chat with them. I think I should migrate to Asia. I feel that Asians are friendlier than Europeans. I have a friend who donates me 10k a-cash every week. I got friends who let me leech any time I want. I’m quite lucky to get such friends. After all they have never seen me before. I wonder how they will treat me in real, if I ever meet them. There is a lot of difference in every one’s behavior. Will they all be the same in real? Hope they will be. Some times when I chat with them I feel very happy.

 Is it because I became a net junkie? May be I’m a net junkie, but I don’t regret and I wont regret  : ). I’ll rather be happy to have such friends, and feel happy about it, and be a net junkie than not being a net junkie and not having such friends. Ha-ha!!!

When I talk about maple and my friends I got from maple. I should thank those guilds which let me join and gave me a chance to interact with quite a number of people, namely Fatal, Infinity, Legendheroes, iaurora. I shall not list the friends by name just because it will be a damn long list, and I’m a lazy bum who doesn’t have the patience to do that.

Some times I wonder how the hell I got so many friends online and so few in real. Some of my friends say that I spend a lot of time online and that’s why I have a lot of friends online but that isn’t true. I wasn’t spending that much time online 3 years ago. I spend a lot of time online only after I started to play maple. But even then (3yrs back) when I was in school I didn’t have a lot of friends.

After I started to play maple I changed a lot. Friends of mine who introduce maple to me have already quit the game. But I’m still playing. And I don’t think I’ll be quitting maple any soon. I tried playing cabal for 3 weeks, when I went Spain. But when I reached back Moscow I’m back to maple and quitted playing cabal. Even though many think that cabal is a nice game, to me maple is nicer as it is cuter and the people who play maple are mostly friendly.

 

 

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meaning of life

What is the meaning of life? Why should we live? We live like machines from our birth.

1)              Study

2)              Work

3)              Marriage

4)              Kids

5)              Make the kids study

6)              See the kids work

7)              Die

Does it really worth living? I don’t know. But I don’t have enough guts to commit suicide. Wish I had. It should be easier to die than live in this evil world. Once I even bought a book “100 ways to suicide”. But nothing is feasible. What is the point of living if you are not some one special? 

 

 “Suicide is not chosen; it happens

 when pain exceeds 

resources for coping with pain.”

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customizing blog

Was trying to edit my blog and make it look good for quite some time. I started learning HTML, XHTML, and CSS. I’m planning to learn JS then will spice up blog a bit. 2 days back the blog looked like a rape victim. But today it is a bit organized. I’m happy to see that the blog looks decent now. I believe I can make it look better. Soon after learning JS will experiment things and try to make it look better :). 

 

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